Knock, Knock!

Like any human, I fall off track sometimes when life becomes overwhelming and complicated; forgetting to seek Him and His amazing guidance only to grovel for His forgiveness in being absent to His presence. I am greatly rewarded by blessings of many different kind.

God does not forget me, or you, no matter what goes on or has happened in your life or the world. I hope these daily devotions can help others as much as they have helped me.

For anyone who may be reading this, please do not post comments (or try to) bashing myself or my religious beliefs. I am not out there seeking you out for your differences to try and debate them. I respect that everyone is different, everyone has different religions and beliefs and I completely respect them for that as they have that right. I have been down many different roads in my young life, and this is what I have chosen because I feel it with every beat of my heart. I just ask that it be respected.

Sunday, October 9, 2011

9 October

I'm back, after a lot of struggling the last few weeks, but I am back and hopefully for good. I have let laziness and procrastination get in the way of keeping me on track and keeping me motivated to keep up to date on my blog. With my husband deployed, it has been almost too easy to let myself become distracted. Not only that, but I made a horrible decision to have some drinks on an empty stomach (rookie mistake!) and paid for it the entire next day. It felt like death and, I think, a sign that I'm getting older. Can't do the same things I used to when I was 21.

Then there has been the small bit of sadness that I've been trying to let go of. Before David left, we had sort-of started trying to get pregnant. Granted, I shouldn't be so hard on myself or sad at all as we only tried for two weeks, lol. I have to remind myself of that. However, it still stings a little bit each time I hear of another friend or squadron wife finding out they are pregnant. I'm getting there and telling myself God has another plan for me right now and I am not there on my path yet. I pray that there is a "baby stop" on my path--my biggest fear is that it is not, but I need to let go of that fear and that worry and hand it over to Him.

When I pick up my "Jesus Calling" book, that has been collecting some dust on my nightstand, and open it to the current day--it is always as if He picked the exact words specifically for me to read at that time. Never fails to strike my heart and lift me up. What I need to start doing again, is writing my thoughts, struggles, fears, and worries out instead of keeping them in; even if they do not quite coincide with the day's devotional. It really helps me not harbor those feelings inside. I hope you all don't mind and can understand.

Without further a due, here is today's devotional:

9 October, 2011

"YOU HAVE BEEN on a long, uphill journey, and your energy is almost spent. Though you have faltered at times, you have no let go of My hand. I am pleased with your desire to stay close to Me. There is one thing, however, that displeases Me: your tendency to complain. You may talk to Me as much as you like about the difficulty of the path we are following. I understand better than anyone else the stresses and strains that have afflicted you. You can ventilate safely to Me, because talking with Me tempers your thoughts and helps you to see things from My perspective.

Complaining to others is another altogether. It opens the door to deadly sins such as self-pity and rage. Whenever you are tempted to grumble, come to Me and talk it out. As you open up to Me, I will putMy thoughts in your mind and My song in your heart."

Jeremiah 31:25; Philippians 2:14-15

1 comment:

  1. Thank you for your blog. I read Jesus Calling and also skip some days. I was working up in my study and didn't have time to run and grab my copy. I searched on the internet and found your blog. I have been complaining a lot and needed to hear this I actually enlarged and ran off Philippians 2:14-15 and pasted it up in front of me. Don't be discouraged about not having children yet and don't worry. I am 49 and have a 12, 10 and 6 year old. Yes, you heard me right. I started at 36 and I honestly think that I would not have been able to handle the stress earlier in life. Have a wonderful day and if you drink on an empty stomach, Gatorade works wonders. Blessings to you and your husband. May God keep him safe. Kari